The morning began yesterday at 4:30am and that makes me angry. I like sleep. The cat and I once again twisted, turned, and refused to give in and get up. That was followed by half a day sitting in the recliner with a bag of Chips a’Hoy chocolate chip cookies. The pity party was under way. Every second was filled with self contempt and shame; I should be productive right now. Sound familiar? Be honest.
The week had been filled with trips to care for a loved one in the hospital, a full counseling schedule at work, a publishing project deadline, very little exercise, typical life and family stressors…you get the picture. I pride myself in getting a lot done until my body refuses to cooperate and my mood follows. Again, sound familiar? Be honest.
Late in the afternoon I turned my computer on and saw a large sticky note on the screen. Isaiah 30:15 says, “This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says: ‘In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it.’” Busted, right?
After letting that verse sink in, I sank in to the recliner and put the cookies away. Shame loses its power when held in the light of God’s Word. Contempt no longer controls when compared to the kindness of Jesus. His kindness leads us to repentance, right? So I rested.
By evening I was ready for an intimate time with my most favorite friend, Jesus. We talked. We laughed. We cried. I repented. He raised my face to His and smiled. This morning, after a beautiful night of sleep I worship Him. His tender, firm, kind, unwavering love makes me wonder why I don’t rest and turn to Him sooner. Instead, I dance in the desert on hot sand until I fall to my knees and cry, knowing there’s an air conditioned tent right next to me.
Oh, but when I do spend time in that tent I am refreshed and ready to stretch, step out, and be present with Christ for whatever the day holds. Will you join me today? Let’s give ourselves permission to enter the tent whenever we need to and not wait until we have to.